The Loner of the Crew

I have a confession to make. I am not part of the crew. I am more the loner. I don't keep to myself. I don't hate everybody else of the crew. I am just not part of it.

People like me for who I am, but that is not the reason why I am not part of the crew. The reason why I am not part of the crew is that people confide in me. I act exactly the same in private as I do in public. I am slightly sugarcoated when I open my mouth when I chill with the crew but I still have a purpose. I don't small talk, I prod into your soul. If I am clueless about you then feel free to look into mine. Such actions as this is threatening to the whole crew because we put on our masks. Mine is flimsy. You can see my face easily. You might as well call it a thong for my face.

I have a lot of friends, but they are from different crews. At best I am an honorary, but not an official. I value the individual person rather than the persons associated. I cannot change what the person is and I judge by the person's actions. And this is how I earn their trust, simply because I am not associated. This is what makes me sought after and threatening at the same time. I know the person for who that person is - and those who fall out with me do not accept for who they are. I am a mirror that sees through all vanity and self loathing.

To be part of a crew, you must subtract parts of yourself and integrate with the rest. I have trouble accepting that fact but I do what I can do abide. At the end of the day I still know who I am and who chose to present themselves to me without anybody in the background. My friendships are of an individual basis and I accept this aspect of my personality.