The Value of the Constant

Let me take a break from these random picture and video posting and do what I do best, writing. While there has been a lot of things to talk about going in my life, I would like to focus on what me and my honorary older sister call, a 'constant.'

When people I haven't seen in ages ask me if I talk to this person, or that person, it comes with the pretense that I was close to this person at one point in my life. Now if the answer is 'no, I haven't seen this person in a while," I quickly get the response of "but you guys are so tight!" or "you guys were like family." I would then hit back, "They are no longer constants in my lives." It is not so much that I no longer care for them because I do, it is because we both (or we all) chose different directions in our lives.

So who do I define as a constant in my life? Anybody who mutually keeps in touch with me as much as I keep in touch with them. While there are people I still want to include as a constant in my life, I simply can't be the only one trying to reach out to them as much as I still have to respond back when they send me an IM. A constant in my life is someone I can talk to, someone I can grow with, someone who cares to be there as much as I care to be there myself. I have several constants in my life, most of them I knew for a long time and others I met recently. They know what is going on with my life as much as I know theirs. Even though we have communication through AIM and whatnot, I actually DO SEE my constants when I have extra time. No matter how many friends we all have on myspace or facebook, the number of constants in my life remains a small minority obviously.

There is no bitterness in my words though they may be easily misconstrued. Even if someones ready to give me the time, I still have to accept it as well and be willing to put in my time, which I don't have much lately. That is all determined with whatever you can bring to me. It sounds selfish but I can't really afford to be with people not growing, evolving, pretty much doing anything great in their improvement of their own lives. You are who you associate with, and I'd much rather associate myself with successfully ambitious people who are genuinely interested with my life.

~Fashiggity X